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I don’t want nor do I need another J.O.B

I don’t want nor do I need another J.O.B

To be divine is to be whole. To be whole is to be complete, the evil and the good.

As my layoff from my 2 years of working in auto insurance nears (I will not disclose the company’s name at this time…cause I’m still working until this layoff, cause I want to ensure my severance pay is direct deposit.) I have come to a conclusion that I would rather jump off a 50 story building while holding a gun to my head, while I plummet to a solid concrete ground with giant chards of glass surrounded by under fed, starved, violent and ferocious lions waiting close by to eat my mangled body; rather than get another J.O.B.


Seriously.  No joke. Yep.  Cause to me going back will be the death of my freedom to express creatively. It would be the death of the spirit.  And plus I want to be sure to get the job done.  Ha!  I was one of the fortunate but unfortunate individuals to get caught up with customer service rep and sales rep on their resume.


Those who work customer service now or sales or collections can relate.  It’s a vicious cycle of employment to break. With these J.O.Bs it’s a gruesome duty to be polite and apologetic all day to everyone. .. Including assholes. What job is complete without those assholes?! Excuse my choice of words but I’m not sorry for saying it. I surely DO NOT APOLOGIZE.


Not to mention that it’s always a haggle and hassle to constantly watch the clock. And with me, being the person that I am, punctuality is my enemy. Then on top of that there are the countless technical difficulties that could not be explained. Then customers would constantly try countless ways to receive free or pay less for coverage. Then I also I deal with clueless agents whose job you have to do as well. BLAH….BLAH…BLAH…BLAH…AND SOME MORE BLAH…

images18I could go on about everything but who wants to read all that?

I don’t even want to write all that to be honest.

But back to the point of me writing this. *Sigh* I recall a very good friend of mine told me the acronym of J.O.B. The real meaning of it. My friend is now deceased for the past 4 years but I still hear his voice like he’s right next me. The acronym of JOB is just over broke.



That really resonated with me until this day as you’re reading this. As I reminisce my days of employment and also my days of unemployment from corporate I’ve come to feel my best unemployed. Yea I may not have a bi weekly income, but my outside expenses are not as great. It’s funny how we invest so many hours for a mediocre, sometimes grueling wage, and once we are paid we are too tired to enjoy it or we have many expenditures that must be paid.




This is not how I envisioned my life as a child.

I really have aspirations and dreams of becoming better and doing more. I have inspirations of becoming well off financially until I will be able to help and make others around me financially secure. Because with me working on someone else’s time is really limiting my income dramatically.

Plus, I enjoy the thought of me being completely free from someone else clock. I desire to enjoy every hour, minute and second of the day doing what I love to do freely and contribute something back to society at the same time.

I see others do it every day. I know I have the ability to accomplish that as well.

It’s not that I don’t like my co-workers…because I do. They’re great people. I just don’t enjoy the confinement and redundant tasks.

1920268_10204487196641829_146434961272246524_n This is me…with my head-shackle(headset).

This is How I see myself…but with a bottle of Jack Daniels whiskey in one hand and bag of weed in the other. HA HA HAaaa! (Don’t Judge me).

Girl-in-Field-With-Arms-SpreadAnyways…Aside from my long-term life goals. I just wish to live my life to the fullest with the talent I have been given. I wish to live my life. Not to just survive. I wish to be divine. To be divine is to be complete. The evil and the good.


Don’t Push me ’cause I’m close to the Edge!!

Don’t Push me ’cause I’m close to the Edge!!

To be Divine is to be whole. To be whole is to be both the good and the evil.

Don’t Push Me ‘Cause I’m close to The Edge. I’m Trying not to lose my head. We all have been there. You know, on the brink of destruction? The feeling of just wanting to cause much mayhem. Make those who are making our lives a little more difficult spontaneously combust with some sort of Jedi, telekinesis, Carrie rage type of deal. Yes, I’ve played the image of another’s head exploding with just the thought.


I know…that’s crazy right?? But I can admit! And that’s the first step.

The question is why do people behave like this? Why is it that when an individual is having a bad day they do their best to make someone else feel just as bad?


I’m an Empathetic person. Like to the extreme. If you are not aware of the term of the word empath I will tell you the common definition. An empath is a highly sensitive person who can feel the emotions of others. It’s like we know and have intuition about what an individual is experiencing. If you feel happy, we feel your joy, if you feel mad, we feel that anger, if you feel sadness we feel down. I wasn’t aware of this until I reached my mid 20’s .

I will admit, it is not a pleasant trait to have at times. Especially when you’re surrounded by people who experience ill and negative emotions. If you’re not aware of how to block this it can totally take over and consume your emotions to where you will react instead of having a sound mind to respond.


Back to the question…you thought I forgot? Why do people who are having a bad day try to make others around experience it? The question is simple you may think…Misery loves company. Of course!! They are just miserable human beings and have yet to fully understand the gift of life. That too, was my first thought. Oh just give them a slap or two and that will bring them back to their senses right? No?


Then I came to realize that everyone may not know how to express their feelings with the proper communication. But we think that since everyone has a voice and know how to speak, how is it that they just don’t simply say what is on their mind? That is because some people may not know how.


Communication is a skill that some go to school for. I didn’t go to school for it. So I had to learn how to properly communicate on my own trial and error. And I’ll admit too, I still experience trial and error until this very day. Because communication is a skill that we can always improve.


When a person has a bad day, they have many disagreements with others. Many times when two people have a disagreement they will have an argument, or as I like to call it, a debate. Many times when people are in disagreement they often do not fully listen to what the other is saying. All they can think about is their rebuttal to what the other is stating. As I’ve read somewhere, some only listen with the intention to reply, not to completely comprehend. Not to fully acknowledge the other individual and to come to a mutual compromise. Even it is just to agree to disagree.

Communication is a vital aspect in all relationships from the work place to your home life. Healthy relationships cannot survive with lack of communication or miscommunication. Lauryn Hill stated in her song “Lost Ones”, miscommunication can lead to complication. And that is precisely right.


When a person is not understood by others around them, especially family, it causes much feeling of discord within. I am here to tell you that you are not alone. We ALL have had our fair share of bad days. When we’re having a bad day, or any other type of day that is not pleasant, instead of just going berserk on others we should simply say “I am not having a good day.” That alone will give the other person more insight and it may lead to the question as to why the day is not so pleasant and it may even allow them to think of a resolve to make the day end on a better note.


I don’t know a human being walking that have all sunny days with rainbows made from skittles and everyone bringing you your favorite slice of cake. Oh how wonderful would that be? Awesome. Complete awesomeness. But it’s okay to have a bad day. It’s okay that others around us are having a bad day. What I don’t think is okay is making your bad day become some else’s bad day. It’s okay to express, just be sure to communicate in a healthy way. bad-day-card11And if you’re on the receiving end of the one having a bad day, just listen without criticism. Offer solace. Let’s help not harm.

images3On your next bad day remember…

We are not perfect beings. We are divine beings. To be divine is to be whole. To be whole is to be both good and evil.

Don’t Stress the Stress

Don’t Stress the Stress

To be divine is to be whole.  To be whole is to be both good and evil.  What some call the yin and the yang. Life is not always on the up and up. There’s always a down moment.  I don’t care who you are what you do where you’re from who you know or who knows you.  We all have been there. .. Still may be there. Hopefully, we pick ourselves back up and don’t stay down.  For recent example (may his spirit be free and at peace), great artist and comedian. .. Robin Williams.  He brought so much joy to the world around him but could not completely enjoy it.  It was something seriously stressing him. There are also those individuals who inflict bodily harm not only on themselves but others as well. So what is the definition of stress?

Google defines it as:

1.pressure or tension exerted on a material object.
The degree of pressure exerted on a material object measured in units of force per unit area.
2. a state of mental or emotional strain or tension resulting from adverse or very demanding circumstances. “he’s obviously under a lot of stress”
synonyms: strain, pressure, (nervous) tension, worry, anxiety, trouble, difficulty; informal hassle
“he’s under a lot of stress”
something that causes mental strain.
plural noun: stresses
“the stresses and strains of public life”
3. particular emphasis or importance.
“he has started to lay greater stress on the government’s role in industry”images1
There is much meaning to the word stress.
However, I will only speak of mental health as well as physical and spiritual.
Stress is not all bad.  After all, some things of importance should cause a little motivational stress. We should stress the importance of ensuring our well being in relation to knowing how to self maintain and if there are loved ones, the care of them as well.
There’s also the placing of priority of financial stance. Are you an adult that can maintain and budget your money? There’s being physically attuned in relation to diet and exercise. How do you feel physically right now at this moment?   Emotional and social as is having healthy relationships that will help you maintain as you progress. How is the relationship between you and others?  How well and do you get along?
And most importantly spirit.  If you were to die today would you close your eyes with happy memories?
Yes, stress can kill in more ways than one.

goodgriefWake up call too early?


Common external causes of stress

  • Major life changes
  • Work or school
  • Relationship difficulties
  • Financial problems
  • Being too busy
  • Children and family

imagesCommon internal causes of stress

  • Chronic worry
  • Pessimism
  • Negative self-talk
  • Unrealistic expectations/Perfectionism
  • Rigid thinking, lack of flexibility
  • All-or-nothing attitude

My request to you is to sit back and look at your world. Look at those who surround you, the position you’re in at work or just in general. What would you like to be improved or different?  We can’t control everything. No.  But we can control self. How do we look at things? How we respond to people and situations instead of just reacting? Our perspective to what we see things as is, is what we cause stress to.
How do you see your life?
Better yet, how would you like to see it as? And to get there is your current method working?

stressed1 This Stress Reduction Kit may or may not help….

Well, don’t stress the stress.  There are many ways to cope.  Just Google stress and do your research. Go to counseling.  Express it with someone you trust. This site is a great place to start: http://www.helpguide.org/mental/stress_signs.htm

Recognition is vital and action to improve is required. Life is a journey. We live and we learn. All things must grow or die. Sun rises and sun sets. Nothing is permanent. No one is perfect, no matter their exterior appearance.

We are all divine beings. The good and the evil.  The yin and the yang.